ciao.

This is my last entry.

Before I left Telos, when it was just Kohana and me left in the clan, I told him that I've always been horrible at goodybes. He told me something amazing.

"don't say goodbye, say ciao! ciao is a magic word... means both hello and goodbye."

"lol. i see. that makes a world of difference to me."

"ciao, mis!"

"ciao!"

Thank to Roley and Aegis for embracing me.

Ciao!

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I recently met someone, and I am completely enamored. He's an amazing person. intelligent, caring, hardworking, honest... and I can never have him.

I think I finally understand the meaning of "life isn't fair."

This place is a Ghostown.

everyone is leaving... War, Dar, Kumi, Kimi, Astell, Vig, Nono, Wyrm and so many more. i don't really have the desire to play or afk anymore - i've just been logging in to talk to people, but there haven't been many on. i sometimes feel like playing again, but then i realize that everyone is gone.

haha. i guess this is what i get, huh?

sors, immanis et innanis.

the one about Telos.

After talking to several trusted Friends and Clannies, I decided to end Telos. It was very selfish of me to leave the raid camping and daily clan activities to Kimiaru and hustlers. I've been too busy in real life to keep up with the clan. I apologize for bringing everyone down the last couple of weeks... it was never my intention. Rather than have you all suffer through boring inactivity before it got REALLY bad, I decided to spare us all. I hope you'll find it in your hearts to forgive me.

A few words to some of you:

Kohana, thank you for all of your advice. You know, I've never been that close to my Father... we get along, but we're not all "buddy-buddy." You've always been like an in-game Dad to me. I've made several important decisions in-game because of your counsel, and I consider your advice when making real life decisions, too. Thanks for keeping the clan name. You have no idea how much it means to me that the name stays with you.

Kimiaru. Yes, you were always my favorite. You're like a little sister to me and I'd do pretty much anything for you.

LovelySonata - I'm glad you came back to the game! I think we'll have some fun times on clanless island until we decide what to do. I'll stick around for a while longer just for you!

Almontri. Oh boy... Al... I don't even know what to say. You've come a long way. you're such an awesome gal... you really kept me entertained. Be confident in yourself and I know that you'll do great in life! I believe in you!

Hirojinn, thanks for letting me be your fag-hag all this time. You're the best. =D

Nien & Iberison, you're both wonderful people. I'm sorry I couldn't do more for you. I loved playing with both of you... You're such a cool couple. =3

Kumigara, I miss you. Thank you for being one of my first and best friends in-game. I always thought that if you left, that would be a sign that Telos would shortly follow.

D'Arwyn. You're awesome. that is all.

Idemair: you're so talented. I envy you.

Astell - alas, I will miss you and your companionship. Let's stay friends and pvp all the time. =D

D_A_N_G_E_R... maybe we will have lunch or dinner some time in the future. haha. Thanks for always being there. Too bad you still don't know how close we actually live! =P

Frankenfert - I hope that everything is okay for you in real life.

Bezzies, thanks for being like my bouncer. Your advice was awesome when I was feeling down.

Wyrm and Kara/Nono... I wish I was as uber as you guys. =(

CRO$$ - thank you for being so faithful and always being there.

HolyMidnight & Jaegermanjensen. You guys are so cool. It was SOOOO much fun playing with you. Let's stay in touch!!!

Ashardalon - thank you for helping me realize my dream of having the clan running 24/7 when you accepted the position of Vice Leader. You did so much for the clan.

Ratridevi... remember that day when Lovely and I were listening so intently to that story about your "best friend?" that was so cute. lol. Anyway... congrats on almost Expert! Let's keep in touch! Thank you for reminding me that this is just a game.

d'Avalon, sorry life took over. We really missed you.

Tiferet - you're the coolest nub ever.

MahouMage. You know... I've always felt some strange connection to you. I can talk to others easily, but I usually don't spill my guts like I can with you. You bring out the most sincere part of me.

TheDaringThree, I'll always be here if you need someone to talk to. =)

Shride... you're so leet. =P

Rakuru, THANK YOU FOR GETTING RID OF THAT STUPID PUMPKIN HAT. lol. Thanks for sticking around as long as you did.

Erisia, you're such a hard worker. Thank you for all of your contributions as vice leader. I should be more like you.

Belletrix, I love pvping with you! thanks for feeding my bloodthirstiness! haha.

Vigelant... D:<

Warlust... this whole thing just isn't the same without you. I can't believe how much I miss you. I'm sorry for being so out of touch... You being on hiatus has killed me emotionally. You're a beautiful person inside and out. I wish we knew eachother in real life.

everyone else: you mean the world to me.

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Okay, so... I need a break from the game. School is kicking my butt like never before, and its completely my fault. I'll still be on, but probably just in town, afk. Feel free to send me a PM and I'll answer as soon as I possibly can.

A few things I want to say to non-clannies:

Roley... thanks for everything. You're fun to talk to and you're a great guy. thanks for all of the advice and help!

Dra69oN. I need to be more like you. I'm glad we can talk to eachother like we do.

Chimaerasong, thanks for always being there. =)

RawrStar, thank you for supporting Telos. We all thought you were awesome. =)

hustlers. thanks for giving Telos that last burst of life. I appreciate it... really.

Unlimted, thanks for letting me preach to you all those times. lol.

Anesa... none of this would've been possible if I hadn't met you. I really don't even know what to tell you... I'm speechless. Thank you... for everything. You're my unsung hero, and I can't give you enough credit.

Thank you everyone for making the game fun! I'll be seeing you!

Until we meet again,

Mis. <3

the one about when i ruled the world.

be my mirror, my sword and shield. <3

the one about how much i'm going to miss you.

hmmm. i'm not really sure what to say right now. i'm thinking a lot of things.

you've been my rock for a really long time. i was able to do a lot of things because of you. i feel like someone swept the rug out from underneath my feet.

i guess all i can really think of right now is:


et tu, Brute?





this is probably weird. i suck at goodbyes.

the one about Spring Break!

this semester has been CRAZY. paper after presentation after exam nonstop... but now it's time to relax. i haven't been home all semester, so it's nice to see my parents again. =)

so, while i was driving home i listened to "Circus" by Britney Spears quite a few times. weird? yes, because i've never liked her... i've never liked her music and i don't like the image she puts out there. i don't know what it is, but i find this song so catchy. i know i looked incredibly stupid singing and dancing to it while driving down I-35. haha.

i was talking to a friend about Britney's huge comeback, but then i realized - was she ever really gone? lol.

here's to a nice, relaxing week.

the one about the unstable servers & current goals.

the servers have been out of control for such a long time now... its getting annoying.

a few things:

-having an expert ele is a beautiful thing. she makes everything die. =P

-7 con scouts are a Godsend.

-i've been having crazy luck with getting ar/dr/human damage on equips.


my current projects:
Black Bishop
Golden Guard
Serpent Javelin
Uraeus
get more clannies geared

oh boy...

the one about my great weekend!

I took a nice break from sword at the end of the week. Was very nice! =3

Anri and Eden hit expert! Grace is less than 3% away.



We kept all 4 colonies after this week's CW. It was a great fight and VERY fun.



Now to catch up on quests! =3

the one about being a real person.

Behind this monitor, typing on this keyboard is a real person.

She has real feelings.

She feels the same emotions that you feel.

She's playing this game to have fun.

She loves her friends and clanmates. They mean the world to her.

She's not the horrible, greedy, backstabbing bitch you make her out to be.

She's feeling a bit beaten down right now, but she'll be back to 100% faster than you can imagine... so be nice to her, because she gets plenty of hate in game for a plethora of reasons... everyday.

the one about colony #4.

I've been lazy about being in the AA for the past few days. Here's where I stand, as of now:



The ONE night I decide to take a break and go out, I miss a REALLY good CW. LAAAME! After a messy fight, we seized El Lago de Las Tres Hermanas, making it our 4th colony.



I love our nice HP Buff and my Atk/Def Buff. =3

the one about what happens when you try to PK me.

i get pked in the aa and do things about it. =)

the one about ice and twirling.

I took these pictures of Anri while she was casting Frozen Field in "The Land of Love." =P



I love Domination Ice!

Almost to the end of my current journey in the AA. woot!

the one about the monotony.

My time in the aa continues. I'm so close!

must... keep... pushing.

I'll leave you with this:



and one number: 61

the one about Valentine's Day.

Happy Valentine's Day, everyone!

Here's to yet another year without a Valentine for me. haha. All of my relationships seem to be doomed to fail... I hope people don't think I'm an Ice Queen or something like that. Oh well, I'm young and have my entire life ahead of me. We'll just have to wait and see what happens. =)

My time in the AA is almost up, Thank GOD. I might break my computer with my head if I have to stay for much longer. I wonder how tonight's CW will be? hmmm.

Here's Top of the World" by The Carpenters. I love this song... I hope to be in love like this one day. It's just so pure and sincere. My Mom says that she knows my dad loves her because he used to play this song for her. Corny, I know... but so cute.

the one about passing the time.

i've been afk a lot since the end of last week. I didn't even leave the AA for CW this Saturday because i've been trying to milk my passes. lol. i need to expert these characters soon before i go permanently afk. jk, of course. =P i'm gonna appreciate the game so much more after this. you know... anyone can expert a fighter, but it takes a MAN (or WOMAN, in my case. lol.) to expert an Ele.

i feel bad for missing so many raids lately. i've been to only one out of about eleven Vergo raids since last week and i missed the clan's first time downing Rafflesia.

it'll allllll be worth it soon enough. must keep pushing!

here's Beautiful Emotion from Noir, one of my favorite Animes. Yes, I actually watch Anime occasionaly. shocking, no?

the about the grind.

the grind for my next three experts is going smoothly. i'll be able to stay on track if these random disconnections stop!

here's "Bubbly" by Colbie Calliat - one of the girliest songs ever. i find myself singing it quite often. =)

the one about paper planes!

One of the catchiest songs that I've heard. It just makes me wanna dance!



I'm on schedule to pump out my next three experts by the end of the month! woot!

the one about maintanence.

Sword is having weekly maintanence right now. I'm talking to some clannies on MSN and browsing the forums. I want patches and new content soon!

Here's "Hepatica." I LOVE the Xenosaga Series.

The one about my Elite La Ventisca.

This weekend was one of the best that I've had in a while! My Friends all celebrated my birthday with me and we had a great time!

To top that off, after months of farming, IT is finally mine! Thank you to all of my clannies for helping me farm. Kohana, you're the best!

Here's a picture of my Vicey Ashardalon's Adorabelle posing with Anri and showing off our Elite La Ventiscas. =3



Here's one of Anri by herself.

the one about my birthday!

Today is my birthday!

I apologize to my clannies for not being too active this week, especially these past few days. I've been trying to get organized for my dinner and party later tonight.

In other news, I finally got Grace to Veteran, bringing my total number of Vet+ characters to nine! Gigantic Blaster is even better than I thought it would be. =P

I'll leave you with one of my favorite songs - Gravity by Sara Bareiles.



Have a great day, everyone!

the one about my great week!

This week has been great!

I've been able to buy several 92e and 100 weapons for my clannies, chip them and +5 them. =3

Our progress is stellar!

Here is a very pretty picture taken by MahouMage at Katovic Snowfield, one of our colonies.



My Birthday is on Friday! WOOT!

the one about the publicity!

These past few weeks have been amazing!

I've recruited some REALLY awesome people, and many people continue to express interest in joining Telos. The hate coming from a few low-class clans has REALLY helped boost our reputation while continuing to tarnish theirs. If I didn't refuse to unblock them, I would personally thank them for all of the publicity that they've given my blog and Telos.

Here's to all of our new recruits and our growing power.

Good job, Telos! Let's keep getting better!

the one about my first expert!

I was finally able to promote Lourdes yesterday afternoon.



I have two or three more coming very soon. watch out! =P

In other news, Telos took colony #3 during last night's CW! Good job, Telos! Attendance was fabulous!

the one about the Pokemon!

We started talking about pokemon in clan chat a few minutes ago and it brought back so many childhood memories. =3

Here are all of my favorites! Yes, they're incredibly girly, I know. =P


#4, Dragonite

#3, Clefable

#2, Espeon!

#1, my absolute favorite, Starmie!

Ah, memories.

the one about the sigh.

I love classical piano. I've been playing the piano since I was 4 years old, and just can't get enough of it.

Here is one of my favorite pieces. "Un Sospiro," from "Trois Etudes" by Franz Liszt, as performed by Marc-Andre Hamelin. When translated, "un sospiro" means "the sigh."

I remember sitting at my piano for hours one night and crying when I first learned this piece because of the difficulty. It was a pain to learn, but well worth the trouble.

the one about the hate.

We took Fatal's colony during this week's CW. Roley, Dra69oN and I decided that we didn't want to be associated with them anymore. McGeezers of course decided to jump in, so he lost his colony as well. They really don't deserve the colonies that they had... they never have anyone on for CW and they couldn't defend them without help.





I was called so many names during those two hours. It was ridiculous. Here are a few:





Skank
Hoe
Shemale (really?)
Coward &
Bitch.





People are so vicious. its just a game.





Anyway, I'm gladd we finally got more colonies. My Clannies deserve it. They are some of the most wonderful people that I know.

I love you, Telos.

the one about the School Uniform.

I bought this for my lovely Anri tonight. =]



I love it! It looks amazing on her.

In other news, Nephilim is down to just 46 members. What lies in store for them?

I suppose we'll see.

the first one.

So, I've finally decided to start a blog about this game to humor myself. Imagine that.

Where to begin? hmmm. Well, I've been playing since April, but didn't actually get into the game until late August. lol. I wasted quite a bit of time.

I currently have seven Veterans:

Eden, my Scout,
Anri, my Elementalist,
Lourdes, my Fighter,
Giese, my Wizard,
Arbalest, my first Musketeer,
Tessa, my second Musketeer,
Katherine, my lovely Catherine of Strength and
Romina, my newest Veteran.

A few interesting facts about my characters:

• I named my Fighter after myself.
• I had a Male Scout until last week when I decided to trade him for my Vice Leader Warlust's Female Scout.
• My Female Scout was named by Hirojinn, one of my clannies.
• Katherine is my absolute favorite UPC.

I'm incredibly fortunate- My characters are, for the most part, fully decked out, and I am successful in PVP because of my equipment. I won't be showing most of my equips here. I don't want everyone knowing how weak or strong I really am.

Lourdes will be my first Expert. Anri and Eden will follow her shortly after. I plan on vetting Grace in the near future. Lunesca, another one of my amazing clannies, has a nasty Conqueror Shotgun with undead mods that will destroy everything in the Ancient Area. She is EXTREMELY generous and has offered to loan it to me. It should help tremendously in the tough grind that Anri will be facing.

I'm the leader of Telos, one of the friendliest and most active clans on Orpesia. I'm blessed to have the company of such wonderful friends. They are one of the reasons why I look forward to playing everyday. We can complete Gerero, Diablo, Poison Yard and Hell Breaker. We plan on completing Vergo, Rafflesia and Lava Leaf (The Whirlpool of Flame; Fire Gate) in the very near future. Telos is derived from Greek, and can be associated with "Limitless Power," "The Ultimate State of Being" or "End."

My family name? It's derived from Spanish/French/Italian and means "Mercy."